It is time for a change. It is time for a life change. It is time to restructure my existence, my approach to thought and my method of engagement in reality. It is not working, and I have become frustrated, disgusted, distraught over what I see in myself.
My mind has become lazy. I do not seem to engage anymore, cruising without learning, where every opportunity should be spent observing, analyzing, and growing. I am asleep at the wheel, a zombie, descending into a progressive state of mental retardation created by perpetual disinterest. Everything must change if I am to rescue myself. The disease must be cut from my body completely, or it will regrow.
No more idleness-- This includes pointless internet surfing and other time thieves.
I will instead be eating and drinking as healthily as possible, maintaining an athletic lifestyle, and spending set portions of time studying and working. It is important to seperate my activities into these three categories. I have had enough leisure time. It is time now to learn to do without it. Everything I do must be a task. This does not mean that it is not enjoyable--My studies currently consist only of things in which I am interested, and the majority of my work is going to be writing.
I'm having my hair cut off tomorrow. It makes me look retarded, which might be part of the reason I'm so down on myself. We'll see if it helps. Tomorrow, the tard is gone. Ryan is coming back.
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